*PROLOGUE*
Walking in the shadows, walking behind you
Quiet as a mute, I act like such a fool
Thinking hard to say, something of interest
But when you turn to greet me, I speak other worse
And I ask myself, "Why do I care?"

*The story unfolds*
Floating down the past, I trace back the steps
To find back the pieces that forms a whole set
And then I remember, with striking clarity
Our whole history together, innocence at first
Did the thunderbolt hit me? No it did not!
Unlike the others, I was safe . . . or so I thought

With much reluctance, I became your friend
Slowly but surely, even though I disliked you then
You were so different but I had yet to see
The beautiful surprise (or horror) awaiting me
And I ask myself, "Did I have a clue?"

Talking, laughing, gossiping, whisperrr
Conversing with you was such an allure
Your laughter, so infectious so clear
Had its unconscious effect on me, oh dear!
As they say," Ignorance is bliss!"
But one day, came crashing down
This short short peace. . .

All of a sudden, disaster struck
Without a moments warning, I ran out of luck
3 days and 3 nights, gone were you and nary a trace
Poor me then, aimlessly lost and out of place
And I ask myself, "Why do I miss you?"

Deep down in this naive heart, the cogs start to move
It was then the nightmare begun
Already, damage had been done
But quite predictably, and stubborn as a mule
I refused to believe, this feeling of your pull

Then came the Second sign
This tiny thing call Jealousy
You spoke (a little) too much to someone else not me
Anxious of losing your attention, glaring at this new enemy
Burning and hurting, I withdrew into deep dark hell
So you choose her over me? Well, then "dao" you I shall!
And I ask myself, "Why do I act this way?"

Deja vu, my friend, welcome back again
With mounting terror, old behaviour reappeared
Unmistakable and plain
I begin to act, as I had done towards the others
Caring about the little things, in the past I hadn't bothered
What did you say? What did you mean? Analysis starts over
Scraping through nondescript and trivia
I search for signs of hope--
Hope for a new lover

As days crawl by, understanding slowly dawns
I know what I want, it is easy to see
Hard to deny, I turn morose and forlorn
Not again lord! Not this one, I plead!
Too precious to me, this gem of a friend I need
But everywhere I go, you are all that I see
And I ask myself, "Why must this happen to me?"

*Now. . . *

Fidgeting uncomfortably, so aware of your presence
We're just next to each other, separated by stony silence
So near yet so far. . .
Thinking hard again, just wanting to open my mouth
Out of the blue I hear, the voice I had sought
Smiling, you praised me and awaited my response
But the only thought I had, was this insane urge to hold you. . .

Good friends we are, I always give you presents :)
You never gave me any, I failed to learn this lesson
Nevertheless, I'll press on with my mission
But first, 101 worst case scenarios I envisioned
Time's running out, the perfect moment's here
We are alone, I feel your warmth so near
And I ask myself, "Do I dare? Do I dare?"

Do I dare? Seize the moment?
And in a moment wipe out all that I live for?
Revisions and decisions in a minute I can make
Reverse them impossible. Do it or forsake

*EPILOGUE*

Therein lies the enigma, the mystery that envelopes
How did it happen? An occurence so anomalous
For the first time in my life, love beckoned from within
Not the face or the body, but the beauty inside thee
Was what that ensnared me. . .

*End*

Written by: Elsa (sister-in Christ)